Isolation and Destruction

Written By: Haven House Sober Living Date: June 22nd, 2009. Topic: Member Blogs.

I want to take this time to reflect upon isolation and its destruction. After speaking with my sponsor today, I realized that I sometimes dodge his and other’s phone calls. I screen them and hide. Also; If someone returns my call, and I decline calling them back; am I doing on to others as I would have them do on to me? Absolutely not! It is old behavior. If I don’t call my sponsor on a daily basis; not only am I not following direction, but I am isolating. That is the purpose of my “non-com.” This is my story.

voidance plays a huge role within my addiction. My addict says if I avoid doing anything and everything that causes me fear or feelings in general, it will somehow be ok. I can avoid these feelings and things will still work out! (the addict).

However, avoidance never gets me anywhere in life. It also has terrible consequences. Let’s say I avoid paying parking tickets, I will end up getting a boot on my car. If I avoid calling my sponsor, I am headed for the “boot.” I don’t isolate by staying in my room. I isolate by not picking up the phone when it rings… only sharing my story with certain folk….. compartmentalizing my truths. This is old behavior and it will get me nowhere. God, grant me the serenity to accept the things I can not change, the courage to change the things I can, and the wisdom to know the difference. Amen.

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