In Touch with Pain
Written By: Haven House Sober Living Date: June 22nd, 2009. Topic: Member Blogs.
Pain is something I am very intouch with. It never seems too far away from me. I feel it daily. A lot of that is centered in my relationship with my ex-girlfriend. Every day I think about the pain she has caused me and I feel it all over again. It hurts that we are no longer communicating and also it hurts that she doesn’t try to get back with me anymore. My pain has developed into anger and hate and resentment. I feel so disappointed by her and it is almost unbearable sometimes. I have a hard time learning the lesson in my pain. I don’t understand why it has all happened and what I should do about it. I have been unable to move ahead and dwell and suffer in the pain instead. I have hope that it will pass, but when itn has been on me for so long, it starts to seem that it wont go away. I know that isn’t the case, but it feels that way. I also have a lot of anger within me that I don’t know how to deal with. My therapist wants me to access and begin to get rid of it but again, I don’t know how. It consumes me. I am not a person who openlky shows his anger or gets angry and yells or anything. I keep it down inside and it destroys me. It would behoove me to process my feelings and to exert that negative energy into something positive.
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