7 Months

Written By: Haven House Sober Living Date: June 22nd, 2009. Topic: Member Blogs.

In three days, I will be sober for 7 months. Honestly, I’m in disbelief. I wasn’t planning on doing the whole recovery thing. Yet, I have. I’m actually going to keep on doing it too. I have lived in the Haven House for an entire half year. I feel like I have paid my dues and that it is time for me to part ways with this sober living. I am very grateful for the time I have had here. I really pulled my life back together while living here. I have started going to school again, gotten a job, and my music career is slowly but surely taking flight. I am glad that I am not using and wasting my life and potential.

Although recently, I have had a few using dreams. I think I have had about three of them. In each dream I used a different substance but with the same result. I couldn’t even enjoy getting high in a dream! I immediately felt guilty about losing my sobriety and letting people down. When I first got sober, I had using dreams and when I woke up I wanted to go right back to bed. Things have definitely changed. Don’t get me wrong, I still have the urge to use sometimes but I just don’t act on that impulsive behavior anymore. I can handle life on life’s terms now. I know I just threw in an Alcoholics Anonymous quote, but wouldn’t say it if it wasn’t true.

My life is a little frustrating at times. I have school 4 days a week and work 5 days a week. On the days I don’t have one I have the other, and twice a week I go to school in the morning and work for the rest of the day. It’s been tough on me. I don’t have one day of down time. I truly need at least one day of some rest and recuperation. I am working on getting one less day of work on my schedule. I hope it works out. For the first time in my life, I enjoy my job and school. In the end, being happy with your life is what’s important.

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